acfr chapter 33

He Ziming knows that people like Lin Zhixing will never cherish the people in front of him. Only the things that are unattainable and lost are the most precious to him.

Therefore, he has now become the one that Lin Zhixing has lost.

He Ziming laid out clues[1] as to what he had done, and controlled the rhythm of the development very well.

The next day, He Ziming was lying at home watching TV, when the system suddenly notified him that Su Yuehe’s favorability had reached 100 points and Lin Zhixing’s guilt value reached 100. He Ziming knew that the two men had discovered the “good thing” he did, and the clues he buried.

Lu Wensheng had thought of using his own power to help He Ziming to teach Lin Zhixing and Su Yuehe a lesson, but He Ziming turned him down.

He Ziming felt that this child’s three views were a little crooked. In the spirit of building core socialist values, he decided to use love to help him correct his outlook on life, values ​​and society: “No need. Although Lin Zhixing hurt me, the others, all the employees in a corporation as large as Lin’s are innocent. I can’t hurt them because of my personal hatred for Lin Zhixing, and make them all unemployed … And, although I am a man, the other people in the Lin family were pretty good to me. “

Lu Wensheng frowned slightly, as if he had sunken into deep thought.

“I was overwhelmed by hatred and wanted to take revenge on Lin Zhixing desperately, but I came back to myself… I didn’t want to become a person with an abominable appearance and hate myself,” He Ziming said softly.

He grabbed Lu Wensheng’s hand and said, “You also have to promise me, you can’t do something in private to avenge me. I don’t want you to dirty yourself because of that kind of person.”

Lu Wensheng was quite touched, and in an instant he felt even more pity for He Ziming. He tenderly kissed the corner of He Ziming’s mouth: “Okay, I’ll listen to you. If you say you don’t want to retaliate against them, we won’t retaliate against them.”

“We really don’t have to turn ourselves into bad people for them.” He gently held He Ziming in his arms: “Let’s live our life well, regardless of them. The past is the past, they have nothing to do with us.”

He Ziming laid in his embrace, and said quietly, “… Okay.”

Lu Wensheng kissed the soft hair on the crown of his head, feeling as if he had met an angel.

Su Yuehe came to He Ziming once afterwards. When he knocked on He Ziming’s door, Lu Wensheng was immediately displeased and wanted to drive him away, not wanting him to disturb his lover.

“He came to me, it seems that it’s unrelated to you. You go ahead.” But He Ziming opened his mouth and stopped him.

Lu Wensheng could not resist him. He immediately looked at Su Yuehe to give him a warning, then returned to the room alone.

“Fang Ming, I’m sorry …” The rims of He Ziming’s eyes were swollen, his eyes red with blood, and there was a lot of stubble on his chin. It was a dispirited look that was never seen before. He stared at He Ziming and apologized as soon as he opened his mouth.

He Ziming let out a long sigh, and made himself look gentle and relieved after leaving Lin Zhixing: “You don’t need to say sorry to me, you haven’t done anything to apologize to me for.”

Su Yuehe stammered, looked at him, and unconsciously called him: “Fang Ming …”

“Su Yuehe, did you know? I used to hate you, was awfully jealous of you, and even wanted to kill you, because you always had many things that I don’t have. Such as the love and protection of Lin Zhixing, a good family background that doesn’t let you experience the hardships of the word, your innocence and naivety that can always be well-protected. For your sake, Lin Zhixing even dug out my kidneys, and then used himself to compensate me by being together with me…” He Ziming recounted in a very undisturbed tone.

Although Fang Ming himself was not a good person, Su Yuehe was the source of all his misfortunes …

In the case that Su Yuehe himself didn’t know anything.

Su Yuehe’s tears suddenly filled his eyes, and his voice choked out: “Sorry, I … I can give my, no, your kidneys back…”

He really never knew that it was because of Fang Ming’s kidney that he could live on.

If he had known, he wouldn’t … wouldn’t want, and wouldn’t let Lin Zhixing do it.

“Foolish child, you only have one kidney now. If you give it back to me, do you think you can live?” He Ziming heard Su Yuehe say, but smiled suddenly.

Su Yuehe was the cause of everything, but from a certain standpoint he was truly innocent.

Su Yuehe merely shook his head: “I don’t care, this life, this kidney was given by him.”

He never thought Fang Ming had suffered so many injuries. Now, he just wanted to erase Fang Ming’s scars and make the other party happy again …

For this he was willing not to have this kidney, this stolen life, and to return the kidney to his original owner.

“But I care.” He Ziming shook his head and interrupted him directly: “Although now both of us only have one kidney, we are both still alive. If I take away this kidney, you will die… Su Yuehe, I don’t want you to die. “

Su Yue was stunned and looked at him: “Fang Ming …”

He Ziming knew that the original owner would do whatever he could to achieve his goals. He had strong sense of revenge and jealousy. It was not a good thing. But when his body was in (He Ziming’s) hands, he wanted to shape the original owner into a flourishing white lotus and a peerless holy father while completing the task.

Only in this way can he make the original owner the most beautiful white moonlight and the warmest existence in the hearts of those who have hurt him. Only thinking of the hurt they have caused to the original owner would be unbearable.

Forever living in guilt and self-torture.

“Su Yuehe, I once truly hated you and wanted you to die. I was tortured by hatred beyond recognition, so extreme that I didn’t recognize myself.” He Ziming looked at him deeply: “But when I came back to myself, I suddenly realized that all of this was caused by Lin Zhixing. You didn’t know anything, and it had nothing to do with you. You could be said to be innocent. “

Su Yuehe’s voice choked, “Fang Ming …”

He regretted why he didn’t find out all the truth earlier, let Lin Zhixing hurt this person, and hated the harm he had done to this person unconsciously and unknowingly …

Why didn’t he find this person was so good before, so good?

“Su Yuehe, I give you my kidney. I’m giving it to you. You live well. I don’t want to hate you anymore, and I don’t want to see myself so distorted.” He Ziming didn’t intend to take back this one kidney, he wanted the son of fate to live well: “But I hope from now on, that you will never appear in front of me again. Our grievances have been settled, and I don’t want to see you again …”

Su Yuehe was stunned[2] on the spot, and moved his lips to ask him why, but he couldn’t say anything on the tip of his tongue.

“I don’t hate you anymore, but as soon as I see you, I will think of Lin Zhixing and everything in the past, which is very painful. I want to leave it completely, and don’t want to have anything with the past. The implicated people have contact. “He looked at Su Yuehe deeply and said slowly:” Especially … you. 

Even if it was difficult to bear, after listening to He Ziming’s words, Su Yuehe couldn’t say a word: “… okay.”

Since seeing him would bring pain to Fang Ming, since Fang Ming didn’t want to see him again …

So, he was willing, willing to never see Fang Ming again, to no longer appear in front of him … even though that would make his heart break.

——

After that, Lin Zhixing and Su Yuehe never saw Fang Ming again. They only occasionally got a few words about this person’s good life and happy news in the conversations of others.

However, the relationship between the close friends completely deteriorated after Fang Ming left.

As soon as they saw each other, they would think of Fang Ming’s desperate and cold eyes that day, and they could no longer face each other.

Lin Zhixing knew that everything was his own doing, his own fault[3], and had nothing to do with Su Yuehe, but he couldn’t face Su Yuehe. Su Yuehe knew that everything that Lin Zhixing did was to save him. He can’t blame and hate Lin Zhixing, but he was disgusted by the harm he had done to Fang Ming.

They didn’t break up, but they distanced themselves from each other.

Like strangers.

Because of the Lin Group’s crisis, Lin Zhixing returned to Tianxing to start working seriously. He became a serious general manager. After doing more, he slowly realized the hardships and difficulties of Fang Ming at that time. He understood Fang Ming more and more, and also increasingly missed the time when Fang Ming was beside him. Inadvertently, but unconsciously, every aspect of their interactions had been engraved into his bone marrow for a long time. At this time, he suddenly realized that, after accumulating over days and months, his love for Fang Ming penetrated his bone marrow.

It was just that he understood it too late. When Fang Ming was by his side, he treated Fang Ming too badly … Now even if he was remorseful and hated (himself), he would never return.

He can only taste the pain and loneliness alone, forever immersed in the memory of Fang Ming.

After the Lin Family’s crisis was resolved, Lin Zhixing left City B alone, carrying his remorse and longing for Fang Ming, his dream as a painter, a picture frame, and a brush, and began his own journey.

After Su Yuehe left Lin Zhixing, he learned to be strong all on his own, following Fang Ming’s footsteps and working hard. Relying on the memory of his previous life and the will that his mother left him in the safe at that time, he took back the property and everything that belonged to him from Su Heng and became the head of the Su family and the president of the Su Group.

Now, he was no longer the person that attached to the side of others, needing to seek protection, a parasitic flower[4]. Instead, he was ruthlessly resolute, swiftly and decisively became the upstart of the business world. He was a figure that everyone in the circle had to differentially call “President Su” or “Sir[5] Su.”

But he always remained single. He had never seen Fang Ming again, nor had he seen Lin Zhixing for many years.

When Su Yuehe met Lin Zhixing again, he was at a charity dinner many years later. At that time, Lin Zhixing was already a well-known painter. Every painting he created in passing was able to sell at sky-high prices, but Su Yuehe, who should have become a well-known painter, had long since abandoned his brush and started a business, letting go of his brush and dreams. 

But Su Yuehe did not regret it.

Every painting created by Lin Zhixing was called “repentance”. No matter what he painted, it expressed a feeling of dark regret and pain intertwined, which makes people feel laden with grief as soon as they saw it.

A reporter interviewed him and asked him, “Why was every painting called the same name, ‘Repentance?”

“I once hurt a person I love and loved very much, and who loved me very much. I hurt him so deeply, so deeply that we can no longer go back to the past. Since then, all of my paintings have been made to repent to him.” Lin Zhixing answered.

Fang Ming had completely become the cinnabar mole on his heart, and the white moonlight on his chest.

Su Yuehe looked at him in the background and sneered.

Just then, someone beside Su Yuehe asked him, “President Su, your career has been so successful. Why have you been single all this time and haven’t found a lover?” 

“I already have someone I love.” Su Yuehe said with a smile.

The man looked at him doubtfully, wondering whether his information was wrong or Su Yuehe had just fallen in love.

Su Yuehe unconsciously touched the place his kidney was on his lower abdomen: “Although he will never be with me, he will always be with me.”

He fell in love with Fang Ming, which he discovered a long time after.

However, this relationship was doomed from the beginning … because, Fang Ming’s kidney was in his body. He was the source of all of Fang Ming’s pain…

It was wrong from the beginning.

But it didn’t matter, there was still at least a part of Fang Ming in his body. In this way, he could hypnotize himself, that Fang Ming is always with him.

“Sorry.” The man thought that Su Yuehe’s lover might have passed away and didn’t want to touch his sadness, so he apologized again and again.

Su Yuehe smiled and said, “It’s all right.”

Since then, in the circle, they said that President Su was an infatuated lover. For his deceased lover, he kept himself pure like jade, never married, and cherished the memory of that person all his life.

Like the ending of the original world, Su Yuehe, the son of fate, recaptured everything belonging to him in another way, reached the peak of life, became a winner in life, and found his true love.

It was just that his true love was not with him.

But it didn’t matter. Su Yuehe knew that he loved that person, and a part of that person would always be with him in his body.

He was no longer Su Yuehe he used to be. He was strong enough to walk the long road of life that belongs to him alone.

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TL Note

My gf has covid, please send your thoughts and well-wishes!  ❤

School… it started.  Updates will be spotty, I’m really trying to find time to stock up but it’s so impossible.  I’ll try my best!  This was a really good arc tbh, I’m happy that Su Yuehe had good character development.  Lu Wensheng was kinda boring though, I feel nothing for him LOL.

I.  don’t know what the next arc is actually.  I should read that huh.  Okay I’ll read it now that i’m done this arc!

Also this chapter was rough on me, grammatically. I was like, how am I going to include as much of the original chinese without impending the flow in english.  a horrible task.  😛 machine translators are garbage, if people are also translating, don’t rely on them.  Too many stories are ruined because.  the translator just does not give a shit about grammar or the actual meaning in chinese.  there was a story that was just picked up, but the translator just lifted everything from mtl-novels and uploaded it in a month.  idk how to feel about it, I really liked that story but I think its been ruined bc of the quality of the translations.  I’m actually super upset about it ugh, I’ll probably redo it myself after this novel is done.  Send some love in the comments though!

Footnotes (just use ctrl+f or if u are on mobile, use the find word feature and input [#])

[1]伏笔: foreshadowed, but I changed it to clues bc you don’t use foreshadowed in this way in English.

[2] 懵: stupid or muddleheaded, but i thought stunned worked better in the context.

[3] 自作自受: to reap what one has sown.

[4] 到现在: Chinese dodder flower,  a parasitic vine that wraps around other plants for nourishment.

[5] 爷: father, grandfather. That doesn’t translate well over to English, sir also works.

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